I am free within my own limits ... and I am Limitless.....!!!!!

As I feel...
 I taught myself how to hold the strings of freedom,
and set free myself from ignorance... 
The best teacher in everybody's life is their own life... 
As my experience in life are the best best lessons of my life.... :)

I have always taught myself to be free from darkness of ignorance... 
knowing helps me breathe freely, naturally....

I am free within my own limits ... and I am Limitless.....!!!!!

If this continues...The force of Youth will be killed.... And I dont wish to be killed ...!!!

I feel like denouncing Citizenship of this country.....I would hate myself being a part of Youth and behave like a dependent. But I am not an escapist, hence I would agitate and demand justice for my nation. And I know There are lakhs of mind who would support my thought. In spirit we are Indians. I need not mention about Glory of Indians. We are best in everything that exist in this world, but at same parameter we have worst results as well and this contradictions exists only in our nation...? why..? We all know the reasons,  Why not concentrate on solutions.

It is always said  that a nation is nothing without its people, a nation is a race. But if my nation is full of these people , I don't want to be a part of it. I may sound absurd, but I am fed-up of these thick skin reactions of the people and the politicians.

The economist of the nation are worried about the declining growth rate of GDP, the scientists are worried about space missions, the technologists and software industry is worried about OBAMA's policy of protectionism.... Here everybody is right as they are doing their assigned duty. And I respect them all.

What about our so called " Elected Representative " ? What are they doing..? They are only playing with our sentiments. I know they are not our true representative. We hardly find our representative in the assembly. Everything is  put-forth as mandatory on us. Every thing is so discouraging,  People like Kiran Bedi, Arvind Kejriwal, Aamir Khan are being tainted. And people like Kalmadi, Kannimozi are on bail. Where honest IAS, and IPS and other Officers fall prey to the Maosist, Terrorist, crime- muscle power,  a wild nexus build by the system and supported by the system.

The issue of Presidential candidate has made Indian politics not only immature but foolish, rubbish and nonsense.  It is so clear that Congress Raaj is destroying the spirit of Democracy, Republic. Other parties don't even dare to have any  role. How ridiculous. ? I know the the Post of President is ceremonial, but this does not mean we will accept any scrap. Why are we always settled with less worst... As options are full of worst people, even if something better exist and is capable and dedicated and most important deserved. I also know that in India even the post of PM is Ceremonial, he being clean and honest makes our mouth shut. But if this continues, just imagine  where we are marching....?

This might sound as a lecture. and nobody has time to spend time on this. But what are we doing as a citizen of our nation. I would hate myself being a part of Youth and behave like a dependent. We have witnessed revolution, I am not demanding the same. But we need to give at least a single thought in a day to think about nation's welfare and its issues, and surely we can do something concrete.

 In this globalised world you might feel the concept of nation is defined by MNCs, Global economy, etc, hence u may not need our nation, and you can settle any where in the world. But our nation needs us.Please stand against the injustice done to our nation by our own people. It's not my request but  I strongly demand a common voice, Voice of the Citizen, To protect yourself and our nation from these hypocrisy.

Though Buried .... Still Alive.....!!!!!!

Though Buried .... Still Alive.....!!!!!!

I buried my dreams, deep in my heart...
where no one can hear their voice, not even me....
Yet they make a flash , as of thunder lightening in my memory,
followed by heavy drops rolling down and some storms in my heart....

Days, Months, years have past....
still they are in the grave of my heart ....
Will they die before I close my eyes....?
would they be able to make their existence after me...?
what have I done to them...?
They would never forgive me....

One thing I can do....
I can transform my dreams, re-frame them,
and make them alive again....may in different form...
I hope they would understand me and forgive me....

I know some how they would come true.....
I know they can fight with me for their existence....
they would force me to change my priorities for them.....
BUT............
Now they have learned to adjust with my life...
They trust me so much that , they are still alive in the grave of darkness .....

I don't know about tomorrow....?
What if I fall asleep forever...?
Who would unbury them...?
who would wake them up.... ?
who would fight for them....?

I know... No one ... No one.... !!!!
It's only me ..... They are mine.... Only mine.....
I would never let them die buried ....
I will work for them and bring them back into my life again....
so What, though I had buried them...?
They are still alive.... They are still alive....

" Me Manasvi "

A letter to myself.....!!!!!

My dear-  My ownself.......

How is me ? How was I ? How I have been ?

I am really sorry, for not being in touch with myself. I know this is unforgivable, but only I can forgive myself...Right..?

I ignored my own voice in the midst of world... 
I pretended to be strong and never let my tears roll down...
I smiled though  I needed a shoulder to cry...
I laughed louder, to hide my whispering pain that I had...
I was feeling suffocated though in freedom...
I gave time to all,  except to my own-self... 
How rude I was with me, How rude...?

Now I am really fine... I am always with me...

As I am back to pavilion....
Yes, I have changed a bit...
Now I hear only my voice, I can't Ignore worldly matters,
but surely can pretend to be...
Now, I pamper myself though I don't have any pain...
I need not pretend to be strong, as I have accepted me unconditionally, the way I am, so no tears dare to roll down....
I am satisfied with myself, and I Can give shoulders to the needy...
Though I am not free, but I can experience freedom without suffocation...


I have learned one lesson- " Come what may, I would never loose myself. I can never satisfy others expectations, but can strive to satisfy my own. Though I may fail, but this failure will improve me each time. " 

I will always take care of myself, as the most precious person in my life is "ME".  when there is something in my pocket,  I can support others. My own pocket needs to be full of Love, Care, Respect, Gratitude, Unconditional Acceptance, Truth, Peace, Trust, Help for myself. Then only I can lend others.

I welcome myself again in my own-life. Now I would never let myself go away from me. Please accept me, though I have changed, this change is for better.

Lots of love , care and wishes to I, Me and Myself....

Berang si mei , berang sa wo, berang se hum…!!!!!!!!!!

Berang  si  mei , berang sa wo, berang se hum…!!!!!!!!!!

Rangeen si  is duniya me rang kayi hai …..

Par mujhsa berang kahi nahi …..

Har rang me  jaisi ek chamak hai …

Mera berang  sa rang dekhkar maayoos hoti me …

Rang  koi chadte hi nahi mujhpe …

Lagi koshish karne koi rang  chadhane mujhpe…..

Dhoondhne lagi ki konsa rang mujh par khil uthega…..

Mujhsa berang koi tha waha khada …

Par wo berang kaafi mohak   tha…

Jitni nazar churaaoo uss be rang se ,

Utni hi  nazar daudti uspe….

Kahi uss berang ko bhi ye rang mohak toh nahi laga ..?

Mene apne aap ko dekha  …

Mera berang  bhi khilne laga ….

Kya yahi wo berang hai  jo mujhe rangeen  karega..?

Wo berang  kadamo ke faasle kam  karte hue ,

Mujh tak aa pohocha….!!!

Aur apne berang se rang me muhe doobo diya….

Yahi berang sa rang me dhoondh rahi thi …

jo mujhme milkar khud bhi khil utha …

dono ka wo berang kayi rango se bhi chamak raha tha…

berang si me , berang sa wo, berang se hum khill uthe…

Don't Know which kind of feeling I am going through........ ???????????

I don't wish to discuss the history, that India was like this and  it became like this now.... !!!! why I am forced to have faith in people who are wicked, corrupt, culprit, criminal  and dishonest... !!! Its such a disgusting feeling about them... why... ? I just don't feel proud about India any more ... I am trying to build faith but I don't wish to build my faith on these false and hollow optimism and deliberately having faith in good ....

Its just pretty simple we demand honesty and integrity form people who take oath to be like that. .. If these parliamentarians are considering themselves supreme or sovereign  then why their acts are of cowards and hypocrites...

Democracy is above all in the present era. We demand developmental democracy.  No need to read the entire constitution just go through this preamble ---

"WE, THE PEOPLE OF INDIA, having solemnly resolved to constitute India into a SOVEREIGN SOCIALIST SECULAR DEMOCRATIC REPUBLIC and to secure to all its citizens:
JUSTICE, social, economic and political;
LIBERTY of thought, expression, belief, faith and worship;
EQUALITY of status and of opportunity;
and to promote among them all
FRATERNITY assuring the dignity of the individual and the unity of the Nation;
IN OUR CONSTITUENT ASSEMBLY this twenty-sixth day of November, 1949, do HEREBY ADOPT, ENACT AND GIVE TO OURSELVES THIS CONSTITUTION."

It clearly mentions "We the People...." , Not we the Parliamentarians... But yessss the job is assigned to Parliamentarians and bureaucrats and all such institutions which are giving public service and whatsoever ... Its not that only Government institute need to be honest and improvise

And look at what have we achieved....?  Media is partly or fully sold out ... Quality of education is only for rich who can afford to pay in lakhs.... Poor people cannot afford to fall ill as they cannot afford to pay bill ...  We can have hundreds of lights in malls but a poor Indian kid  who tries to study after working in farm has to sit under lantern , and that also his/ her mother shouts at them that dont waste so much of kerosene or oil for studying finally you have to work in farm only.... The collector is burnt alive when he gets hold of a mafia or his scam....  but criminals are bailed out easily if not easily but with some drama but no justice to the victim...

What has our freedom fighters dreamt about our nation and what have we made it... The culprit is each and everyone of us... why not simply do your duty the way it is told... why u need always something extra without putting any extra effort...

As an Indian what I demand from my nation and what do I contribute as a citizen. When as a citizen I am responsible enough towards my nation why cant this nation be towards me.. If parliament is supreme let them be but why do they act like   one of of the "  inferior species " on earth.

Now some highly intelligent people might argue no there are good people also and Anna movement is unconstitutional and blah ... blahhh ... blahhh ... and story continues the parliament with few good people  has burried voice and the   anna movement  or  people's agitation is nonsense.... then life goes on and we will get up everyday read newspaper which is paid news,  we will watch cricket and some movies every weekend ... if cannot afford to spend then window shopping ... why worry.... lets take a sigh of relief....

Life will go on... no worry ... we have at least some  facilities if not good facilities ... why complain ... lets adjust and adapt ..... but wait think for a while why adjust and why adapt ... why not complain ... why not raise issues.... why not...?

who am I .... ?

who am I .... ?

Everyday I feel that I need to recreate myself.... and I end with just as I was...!!!!!! But why do I feel to recreate myself... am I not satisfied with my beingness... ? Then I realised that  I want something more from me ... I have started expecting from myself to make me a better one each day...

I anticipated and participated in making myself ... I was feeling better... I listened to myself , my being, my own myself...oh my god I expect a lot from me... but all expectations were very right... as i know myself better that me..... And there were smiles all around...

soon I realised there are other forces acting as well in carving me... i looked upon ... again it was me only.... i looked more deeper in me ... OMG !!!! again I found it was me only...!!!! then why doubt ... 

selfdoubt is dangerous... right ... but self doubt also gives u an opportunity to make yourself more better than ever !!! My doubt was right .. I was making myself  not how I see myself ... I was making myself the way I want my love to see me... and here comes the climax in I, Me and myself....

I was looking up for my someone's expectations in making myself.... But I have not found yet my real mine , my own mine... may be i have met  myself  but has not recognised it or ignored it... and U know what who is my love----- its Me again.... !!!!!

what i am loving is now being happy with myself.... and i see my own self in someone who is me .. so the process of cariving will never end.. every day I will create my ownself for myself.... everyday I am becoming a new me... so that  In the end I will be just me ... just mine ...just myself .... !!!!!!

i still dont know who am i .... but for sure i can be none other than I , Me an Myself...!!!!!