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Saturday, December 31, 2011

Don't Know which kind of feeling I am going through........ ???????????

I don't wish to discuss the history, that India was like this and  it became like this now.... !!!! why I am forced to have faith in people who are wicked, corrupt, culprit, criminal  and dishonest... !!! Its such a disgusting feeling about them... why... ? I just don't feel proud about India any more ... I am trying to build faith but I don't wish to build my faith on these false and hollow optimism and deliberately having faith in good ....

Its just pretty simple we demand honesty and integrity form people who take oath to be like that. .. If these parliamentarians are considering themselves supreme or sovereign  then why their acts are of cowards and hypocrites...

Democracy is above all in the present era. We demand developmental democracy.  No need to read the entire constitution just go through this preamble ---

"WE, THE PEOPLE OF INDIA, having solemnly resolved to constitute India into a SOVEREIGN SOCIALIST SECULAR DEMOCRATIC REPUBLIC and to secure to all its citizens:
JUSTICE, social, economic and political;
LIBERTY of thought, expression, belief, faith and worship;
EQUALITY of status and of opportunity;
and to promote among them all
FRATERNITY assuring the dignity of the individual and the unity of the Nation;
IN OUR CONSTITUENT ASSEMBLY this twenty-sixth day of November, 1949, do HEREBY ADOPT, ENACT AND GIVE TO OURSELVES THIS CONSTITUTION."

It clearly mentions "We the People...." , Not we the Parliamentarians... But yessss the job is assigned to Parliamentarians and bureaucrats and all such institutions which are giving public service and whatsoever ... Its not that only Government institute need to be honest and improvise

And look at what have we achieved....?  Media is partly or fully sold out ... Quality of education is only for rich who can afford to pay in lakhs.... Poor people cannot afford to fall ill as they cannot afford to pay bill ...  We can have hundreds of lights in malls but a poor Indian kid  who tries to study after working in farm has to sit under lantern , and that also his/ her mother shouts at them that dont waste so much of kerosene or oil for studying finally you have to work in farm only.... The collector is burnt alive when he gets hold of a mafia or his scam....  but criminals are bailed out easily if not easily but with some drama but no justice to the victim...

What has our freedom fighters dreamt about our nation and what have we made it... The culprit is each and everyone of us... why not simply do your duty the way it is told... why u need always something extra without putting any extra effort...

As an Indian what I demand from my nation and what do I contribute as a citizen. When as a citizen I am responsible enough towards my nation why cant this nation be towards me.. If parliament is supreme let them be but why do they act like   one of of the "  inferior species " on earth.

Now some highly intelligent people might argue no there are good people also and Anna movement is unconstitutional and blah ... blahhh ... blahhh ... and story continues the parliament with few good people  has burried voice and the   anna movement  or  people's agitation is nonsense.... then life goes on and we will get up everyday read newspaper which is paid news,  we will watch cricket and some movies every weekend ... if cannot afford to spend then window shopping ... why worry.... lets take a sigh of relief....

Life will go on... no worry ... we have at least some  facilities if not good facilities ... why complain ... lets adjust and adapt ..... but wait think for a while why adjust and why adapt ... why not complain ... why not raise issues.... why not...?

Wednesday, December 28, 2011

who am I .... ?

who am I .... ?

Everyday I feel that I need to recreate myself.... and I end with just as I was...!!!!!! But why do I feel to recreate myself... am I not satisfied with my beingness... ? Then I realised that  I want something more from me ... I have started expecting from myself to make me a better one each day...

I anticipated and participated in making myself ... I was feeling better... I listened to myself , my being, my own myself...oh my god I expect a lot from me... but all expectations were very right... as i know myself better that me..... And there were smiles all around...

soon I realised there are other forces acting as well in carving me... i looked upon ... again it was me only.... i looked more deeper in me ... OMG !!!! again I found it was me only...!!!! then why doubt ... 

selfdoubt is dangerous... right ... but self doubt also gives u an opportunity to make yourself more better than ever !!! My doubt was right .. I was making myself  not how I see myself ... I was making myself the way I want my love to see me... and here comes the climax in I, Me and myself....

I was looking up for my someone's expectations in making myself.... But I have not found yet my real mine , my own mine... may be i have met  myself  but has not recognised it or ignored it... and U know what who is my love----- its Me again.... !!!!!

what i am loving is now being happy with myself.... and i see my own self in someone who is me .. so the process of cariving will never end.. every day I will create my ownself for myself.... everyday I am becoming a new me... so that  In the end I will be just me ... just mine ...just myself .... !!!!!!

i still dont know who am i .... but for sure i can be none other than I , Me an Myself...!!!!!